Casting a Net with Serendipity

Non-radical notes from the beach.

Rhiannon is looking for beasts underwater. She is wearing her mermaids swimming costume and shows me her tail which is green and only just pokes out from the back of the little skirt that covers it. We see a swarm of water fleas and she picks one up on the palm of her hand. It is so small that it looks like it is moving backwards or sideways, but on closer inspection it is moving forwards. Sea fleas are from the group of creatures called crustaceans, the order Leptostrac, and the family Nebaliidae. They are supposed to live in silty conditions but the sand is deep here. Rhiannon’s dad is standing at the shore with his two other kids. He introduces himself as Amos McLeod and we strike up a surprisingly long discussion about sea myths, ethnography and creative writing. He has written a story called Mac and the Beanstalk about a giant (Mac) who climbs down to earth from his kingdom in the sky via a large plant, however when he gets here, he discovers that he is actually really tiny compared to everyone else. Amos tells this story to his kids at bedtime, which usually makes him fall asleep rather his children; so when papa is snoozing the older ones switch on the DVD whilst the youngest hacks the computer. Our conversation is interrupted by his littlest boy, who is getting increasingly agitated as his big sister and brother are burying his blue crocs in the swampy sand. I don’t really understand what he is saying as he is only three and speaks Gaelic, English and German, but I can work out what is bothering him by my own experiences of sibling mentality. After the fuss is over and the objects reinstated to their rightful owner, they mistakenly leave the blue shoes behind on a rock.

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Lesley the local school-teacher sits beside me for a chat, and we watch the visiting middle-aged man and his younger girlfriend appear on the beach again. He strips off for a swim while she stays on the shore with the dog. He is wearing tight small black briefs today, nicely secured so that they are immovable under the overhang of his gut. Yesterday I marveled as he nakedly swayed and teetered over the stones then over the sand before reaching the sea. He only realised that someone was watching him when he got to the edge of the water, and that he had to sway and teeter all the way back under a mesmerised eye. I wondered at his method, and why he had not worn his shoes to the sandline as the tide was going out anyway? To me this was an example of a pragmatic and perhaps constructivist approach to learning, where even in middle-age, the nature of the learner does not stop, it just becomes more poignant and integrated into the broader scheme of a life. Amos’s oldest son comes back to pick up the little blue crocs which we hand to him. The wife of Amos is also there, and instead of thanking us for finding the shoes, she turns to me and says ‘Your face is too red.” Lesley and I glance at each other then chuckle, and say in unison ‘German.’ Lesley is writing a book of her life in the early eighties in Western Ireland, which will be a partial study of religious and cultural restraints as perceived by an outsider. She tells of a time when (married) women were held up by the Catholic church as some sort of pedestalled dolls, yet when they were menstruating, had to walk some paces behind their husbands whilst in the house of God. The notion of woman as mother was revered, whereas the reality of woman with desire, vagina, blood, afterbirth and nurturing breasts was considered less worthy. The unwanted pregnancies in Ireland were notorious, and whilst the man in the privacy of a male only realm was patted on the back for not firing blanks, woman was sent away to be dealt with. There were no condoms available at that time, and many young couples had to try to make do with cling film… ironically the brand name for this was Glad Wrap.

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Hunterston B is a nuclear power station just Below Largs on the West coast of Scotland. David, as his name is for the sake of this text, has worked there for twenty-three years. He is currently an instruments technician but has had a number of jobs in the same plant over his time of service. Being a trade unionist he has hoped for state ownership of the company, and his wish was granted some time ago when the French Nation purchased the station. In his spare time David is a photographer of strange events, political actions and asylum seekers. He has spent some time on Nukewatch with Camcorder Guerillas tracking the movement of Nuclear Warheads along ordinary British roads which the Government make use of surreptitiously. He is very clear about his non-conflict of interest, and draws a clear distinction between the controlled use of nuclear power to light lightbulbs and the mass destruction that a warhead may cause. None of his workmates know of this secret part of his life and he is very careful to stay within the law. His only brush with near arrest came when he stopped beside an unmarked police car and asked them if they had seen any trucks; the English policewoman misheard his Scottish accent and thought he was asking for drugs. David likes traditional photographic developing, and through his conversation I can see that there is a strong split in his belief between the subjective act of the photographer whilst taking a picture, and the technicians role in the production of work. He almost dismisses the conception of the image on the film as artmaking, and instead views the objectivity of printing as the art, even though the decisions that are made on exposure time, chemicals and toners to produce an image, are to some extent pre-determined by the photographer. As we sit on the beach waiting for the tide to come in he starts telling me of his family life, his siblings and his parents; he also wonders why he is telling me so much of his personal life. I say not to worry as women always encourage talk of emotions and histories, infact some women are evolving at such a rate that their ears are physically getting bigger over their own lifetime to accommodate such a necessary part of being human. He thinks I am strange because I go into the water with a tripod, and has come down to take pictures of me. He has heard of the Selkies, and has an anarchist English-teacher friend who tells stories of mischief; he will put us in touch with each other as I need a narrator for my films. As I am about to go into the water he takes a close-up wide-angled perspective shot, which will make my head look massive. He says its not very flattering, but I know this already and point out that the way the mask is suctioned to my face it will make my lips look great at least, like I’ve had some kind of collagen implants.

When radical is pulled and stretched over a period of time it becomes quirky.

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Thanks for security

thank you armin for continuing to work for the security of the site.

just so you know, and for your reference because it concerns TNL, my awareness of a whole set of bloggers being aware of me personally (which i thought pretty creepy as it was concerned with my character and followed my posts) came about with a (possibly unrelated) link on a general mailing list (for media), then further down the line after i followed a crumb trail, to a blog post that was parodying something on TNL that you had written and i had responded to. lots of other stuff followed that was personal to me including hits on my blog, so i have become super aware. this was all to do with second life, a role-players virtual world. i have maybe been a bit over-sensitive to things, but when you don't know where something is coming from or why, it is not very nice... however, this is in the past and i trust this group. i do also agree that some things should be posted on the front page. still working on notes from my time away so will try to post tomorrow with images. i've had domestic duties today revolving around children, horses and spilt soup in a car.. it was potato and leek and a totally contrasting colour to the existing upholstery :-)

i will have a good think about who would fit in here, see if any of the researchers here might be good. also thanks for the geert text, i am interested. am trying to think about organising an event in dundee inspired by the situationists and the merging of the dept into art and media, this will stretch the format of our symposia into participation and exhibition, so my list of reading has to be dealt with asap as an application has to be made to the ahrc at some point... lots of work.

have a good weekend
Lx

protect privacy

I can also only say that of course it is a premise of having this group to keep postings made into this group away from eyes of all non-subscribers. I'll do my best to guard this principle technically as admin of this site, but nobody is perfect and I should point out a sort of 'no warranty' principle as in open source. so, while in principle the drupal group module seems to work, I cannot guarantee 100% that not some googlebot or some even more sophistic software can find a backdoor to the content. So far, however, that does not seem to have happened. Lets keep fingers crossed as you know i am not a technician and doing this as an artist/researcher.

I also totally agree that any person to join this groups should really fit and maybe that this can best be achieved be relying on finding the right chemistry happen. I have thought about possible candidates, but have not come to any conclusion. therefore it would be good if you also kept an open eye on this, without any hurry or haste. if somebody 'drifts towards us', fine, if not, i am happy to keep going as we currently do. Enjoying also the cosy campfire-atmosphere of the group i nevertheless think that sometimes it is also good to hang something out in the open to dry, some nearly finished text or research notes, and I think that such more advanced pieces with very non-personal content could not be so easily abused by a webstalker. sorry to hear that the problem has re-occured. it is really sad that the openness of the net is abused in this way. you will also have noticed that I dont allow the public to write comments, this is for the same reason, it would only allow spammers, virus writers and cranks to leave their malware.
so I hope we can keep the uncommons free of that, even if it is a very small uncommons, the cosier for that, and i hope this is also somehow reassuring for all participants that privacy is guarenteed as far as possible.

privacy, discretion, courtesy; new person

i also think of the uncommons as being a private space for sharing all kinds of things in all kinds of states of readiness - or neverness - of going public.

it's why i asked someone, lindsay i think, some time back if i cd share 1 or 2 specific things she had written with a couple of my friends in adelaide who were starting their phds -- lindsay kindly consented, but slacker that i am, i havent actually shared the texts with these friends yet

i think it is useful to make this assumption of privacy explicit, and for us to ask one another for permission to take things out of the realm for specific reasons, if the situation arises - and then the author can say yay or nay, because they understand the context of the request

sorry to hear of your hassles with this in the past lindsay :-(

re armin's update on another player omn the uncommons, and lindsay's response -- yes, if we can serendiptitously or synergetically (?) find/atract another player i am happy .. chemistry does count .. the only person i can think of is someone perhaps getting towards the end of his masters in sydney, but as i am out of touch with him i don't know where he's at... but he is bright, sensitive, politically engaged, and all round lovely person .. i guess i dont know too many ppl as i am studying remotely (ie in another state from my uni)

A Reminder on Personal Privacy

On the back of what Doll has been saying here regarding the public domain, I thought that it would be prudent to mention the personal privacy of postings once again just to make sure that my viewpoint is absolutely clear.

The reason that I post things in Uncommons is that I wish for all content I upload to only be visible to this group, this includes the subjects of that content such as my diary entries, serendipity, Nuclear activists and children. I do not wish for my comments or posts to be discussed outwith this group... atall. I do not do so and do not feel like I even have to. None of my close ones are even concerned about what I say in here. Why would they want to know anyway as it is a work-related thing that is concerned with study... we also have trust? I am saying all this because I have had a great deal of problems specifically with my own PhD blog where I feel I have been harassed by individuals that I can only guess who they are. This targeting has spilled over into other peoples blogs in the past, and may still be, my mid is open to that possibility. This stupidity has only happened on my PhD site and not any others. If the harassment had been on another blog such as RSS Philosophy for example, then I would have understood silly search-term hits because some of the content that I have released has been deliberately provocative. However this problem started in February last year on my archive blog (which I deleted because of it) and subsequently the past year from May 2008. This got bad again around the end April this year and I took it offline, where it will stay.

I'm sorry to bring this up in this private forum, but my own personal privacy is my main concern. I do not wish to go into this type of discussion any further, but I just wanted you to be aware of my reasoning. Cyberbullies are quite sad creatures, and like any other bully they use others to relieve themselves from blame. Their behaviour also stems from their own inadequacies rather than from the person they target, so they do not warrant any further attention.

Hope this mail finds you all well.

the right person

it is up to you armin if you want to invite someone else into this group, i do not mind either way. however a reminder would be why (i think) we get on so well here, and this is because we have a level of trust and respect for each other with an understanding that has developed over time. we say what we think here in the most constructive way possible, which is hard sometimes as (for me) online correspondence is not my favourite way. however it is the relationship between us that is important and the fact that we all listen and (most of the time) contribute and are dedicated to doing so. bringing someone else into this group that did not have these qualities would be like taking the piss out of someone who you know is really decent to keep an insecure boyfriend happy, in the long run it wastes energy as it only feeds the fire for that type of pattern to continue ie: sets the scene for more insecurity in ways that affects others too... pointless!

on a positive note i hope you can think of the right person. perhaps we can all think on it for a while? i'm sorry that adnan does not have time, but i am so glad that he is nearly through the system! Good luck adnan... i'll be en suisse in july/aug if you are around for a coffee :-)

Lx

happy too

i am also feeling quite happy with how things are going in the uncommons currently. we really don't need many more people. however, i hope ms.static gets through her heatwave and then returns a bit more often. I have spoken to adnan, in email and he says that he has finished his thesis and is now in the process of clearing an enormous amount of bookmarks and references, so that, in short, he has no time. this is very understandable, and also as his thesis is finished apart from the footnotes, he wouldnt benefit the same way. so I wonder if we should try to find a fifth person?

lucky lucky ucky!

i really do feel lucky to have the uncommons and the sharing of thoughts, ideas, suggestions and dilemmas...

doll, i enjoyed writing these observations and was actually trying to deal with alot of the issues that interested me such as gender, myth, watcher, strangeness, objectivity, learning ect that was contained in a creative narrative rather than a text, so i am glad that you enjoyed it. the threes do work well dont they? i also like fives but it just so happened that the main body of my experience this time fitted into a three, but i'll totally take that on and work with it in writing, as previously (being a sculptor) the numbers game was more apparent in objects.

the 'budgie smugglers' idea is hilarious and gave me equal amounts of pleasure and disgust! ucky! i see that 'glad wrap' is also australian as well as irish :-)

re: david. i am in a bit of a dilemma as i would never want to use anyone else's story for my own gain at the expense of their privacy, issues or beliefs. this is why i actually moved the first post and then this one to uncommons. 1) because it is really just notes and an example of a way of working and 2) because i did not want any of the people that i have written about to be in the public eye, for some of the very reasons that you have stated. they could easily be identified and targeted if that is what someone wanted to do. lesley is a real person and has only started her book. amos is also real and so are his family, but meeting all of these people had its own symbolism and syncronicity in the deciding factors in the way that i filmed... most of my time was spent on the beach talking to people and reflecting on these conversations, infact i could not believe that i met the people i did, it was amazing! i do have buddhist tendancies, so this did not surprise me, rather reinforced that i was in the right place... but i am sure you know what i mean.

xxxxx

writing in threes

thanks for sharing these observations lindsay, i really enjoyed reading them

it works well as a triptych/threesome
and i wonder if you have been writing in threes for a while?
if not, maybe you can/should keep giving it a go

those tight men's bathers... in oz some ppl call them "budgie smugglers" for an obvious reason!

re "david" -- do u have dilemmas about this tale if u put it into the public domain (eg, if it ends up in ur thesis or website?)
even with initials or pseudonym there is enuff info for someone to identify him i imagine... i had these situations periodically when i was writing stuff about refugee and anti-nuke activism a few years ago... and also about aboriginal justice/injustice issues... no clear solution or template...often no-one to ask...just had to take a punt that i was both honouring someone's story or issue, without compromising them..